So yeah...

So yeah I know its been ages and you girls must have grown a beard waiting and you guys must have grown boobs (owh its a miracle!) waiting too! Updating this blog has been blah and i've moved on to tumblr coz its easier and fun-ner! So if you still want to check whats going in this little head of mine...its www.lazysofie.tumblr.com!!! much loves! xoxo!

I am Wee Todd Edd...

Damn. Its already 3.45 am n im still not sleepy yet, eyebags la ni. Babz tul. I hate it when im like this n da fact dat i got a long of classes n dance practice makes it even suckier. Definitely will be dead tired later.

Anyhooo...

Raya was good, small but really nice. It actually meant more like this when its small. U bond more with ur family. We prayed,cooked,laughed,joked around n talked but....

I hate the fact that u werent there with us, that the only thing i get out of raya from u was just a phone call. I hate the fact that im feeling this way. Sometimes i wish that things were better like before...like before the year 2000 when we were all close n things were not messed up. Hate the fact that i kept it all to my bloody self, hated those embarassing moments, hated breaking down in front of da bf for no reason n not telling him (must av looked like some psycho biatch), hated those nights of screaming n all dat. I hate it so bloody much.

But the thing that i hate the most is that i still miss u so very much even after all that has happen n is still happening.

If i could, i wanted u to be there for raya. But thats not going to happen ryte...

I cant imagine how my wedding will be...fcuk it la....

Ok ok. No more emo. The moment has passed. I've learned that even tho it bloody hurts inside n it actually makes it worse, but its better for everyone else if i just accept the fact that ppl need me to be strong n to just keep smiling so that no one knows the truth...

My own dirty little secret.....

I vant damnit!

I want to...DANCE damnit =)

Yeah,i feel like dancing all over again n that's what im going to do. Following the Ravelution again for the halloween dance this year. Went for the meeting just now (finally...hee hee)...Sean's ideas were pretty kewliooo. Hopefully it'll be fun like last year's.

AnyHOO..!Today was the first time i really see genuine kindness in strangers. I would expect it from a friend, but never a stranger. The thing is that a fellow acca member of ours has just been diagnosed with hip cancer. Poor girl. Her name is Evelyn Lim.She's only 21 and she's smart n hardworking, almost done with her ACCA. Anyway, her friend approached us for help and asked if we could help her out financially so we decided to do a last minute fundraiser for her.

We sold these little cutie clay keychains that was donated by kah mun's mumma (an example of a kind act) and we sold lollipops, yummy muffins, kuih muih donated by jo's mumma(another kind act) and of coz we had a donation box la. I expected ppl to give a ringgit or even at most 10 ringgit but ppl actually donated rm50 and even 100 ringgit!!!Some of these people didnt even plan to donate u know, they actually was just passing by the booth n read the board bout Evelyn n then donated. At times, knowing da bullshit dat is going on around the world right now, it's really nice to know that there r really good people out there.

I'd like to say to thanks on behalf of SAC n miss Evelyn to each n every single person who donated in any way. It's just really nice to know that these people actually genuinely care to help...even if its a stranger!

Much LOVES people! XOXO

p/s: oyea i actually wrote a sign that we were giving hugs for one buck =P of coz it didnt work...hehehe...only nita was willing to pay me to get a hug. I owe baby a hundred hugs for donating...paying it back one step at a time =P

Its been awhile...

i emo.

Camp is finally over. The SAD part is that my time as president is almost up...well it is kind of up already. Now i understand why ah mun was crying when she got dat memory album for her birthday from the SAC peepz. Those people are very loving,caring and there da best bunch of peepz to work with. It has been hard this whole year but its was an amazing learning experience...i learn so so much from each n evry one of those loving peepz. I've learn to be more caring, more tuned to people's needs, more firm when i needed it to be and most of all, a better leader.

It was hard but those moments did not matter coz there was so much stupid crazy fun =) Joining the Sunway ACCA Club was the best move i ever did and how ironic it is that the reason i joined the club was just to get over a heartache after a failed relationship....hahaha....and what did i get out from it...hehehe...i met ma bebeh Hariz and da best two years of my life =)

What i got out of this whole 2 years as an SAC is very memorable and valuable. Definitely things that will help me in my worklife later on. Woot!woot!me cant wait to work....hee hee...yes i know!i am a freak...~! =)

Anyway, camp was awesome...!!!The most memorable moment for me and i think for everyone else during da camp was when we had our midnight jungle trekking on da eve of merdeka. We budgeted our time to reach the lighthouse at da peak of da jungle before midnite so we could celebrate our merdeka there.

We barely made it..i think round 10 minutes before midnite and we waited for the fireworks. It was SO BLARDY AWESOME OK. We stood up and sang our national anthem and then we kept shouting "Malaysia boleh!Malaysia Boleh!". One of the pelatih brought a malaysian flag so that definitely helped pump up da mood too. Despite the bullshit politics going on these days, I couldnt help but feel damn patriotic at that very moment and I felt proud to be a Malaysian. Chewahhh~!

Neway....the rest was awesome la ok. Too tired to elaborate on da details.

i want to be ur sempurna....

Kau begitu sempurna

Di mataku kau begitu indah

Kau membuat diriku akan slalu memujamu

Di setiap langkahku

Ku kan slalu memikirkan dirimu

Tak bisa ku bayangkan hidupku tanpa cintamu

Janganlah kau tinggalkan diriku

Tak kan mampu menghadapi semua,

hanya bersamamu ku akan bisa

Kau adalah darahku

Kau adalah jantungku

Kau adalah hidupku,

lengkapi diriku

oh sayangku kau begitu,

sempurna....

I havent heard a malay song recently that really stuck in my head for hours n hours...not until i heard this song on the radio. Love the lyrics,the guitar n da singer's voice...a really good song...cant get it out of my head...~!

I need a break. From everything. Too many things happening at times. Good things and bad things. Have u ever felt like just dropping everything u doing know n just taking a break?Leaving all ur responsibilities,even tho u cant afford it, but u just have to coz if u dont u go crazy.

I needed to get away but i knew i was too lazy to go far...hehehe =P so i drove from KLIA after dropping my dad to Melaka for awhile. I just needed that couple of hours. It was so incredibly calming going on a roadtrip by myself. Just me n my awful singing =) with the radio blaring n just me relaxing...no hp...no studies...no worries...no problems~!

N guess what, the radio station fly fm's Moolah competition was on. So i decided to play n try my luck. For the first hour, the guy actually called me but something was wrong with my phone so it didnt get thru. He end up leaving a voicemail saying that my phone number is super cun and he tried calling but i didnt pick up so better luck next time. I felt so frustrated but but but....the next girl he called end up getting it wrong so the prize money snowballed to rm1000.

So i tried the next hour of Moolah, hoping he'd notice my number again and HE DID!!!I got it right!!!!I won RM1000!!yeay me...~!!If i got the call earlier i would have only won rm500...woot woot...lucky me the girl screwed up...haha!!meanie me =P i guess it was just my lucky day...

Er..why so serious?

I went to watch Dark Knight last saturday. Oh gawd, I really hate watching movies on weekends coz its ridiculously packed. Anyway, I was in the mood to catch a movie that day so i decided to drag my baby to one But he has his finals this week so he decided to study first then at night we watch la. So i went to cineleisure round 3 plus to buy em' tickets and not surprisingly there was a blardy loooong line ugh...anyway, the tickets for Dark Knight was already either sold out or selling fast, even for the late nights one. But there was one slot that wasnt selling fast...hee hee... the 2.25 AM slot!!!!!

Yes yes...it was my late-est movie ever~!Not even a midnight show, it was a late late late show!So i called up baby and asked him if he was gamed for it, and him being da lovely boyfren said okie dokie coz he knows that im a movie buff...hehehe..Love u baby~!

The movie was GREAT. I'd give it a 4 out of 5. Its a 4 coz it was kinda long, 2 hours and 50 minutes actually. The movie ended around 5.15 am!!!Whoah...me being my cheeky self...end up running here n there in the "dead" mall...anywayyy....

Christian Bale was HOT but the spotlight was definitely taken by Heath Ledger. His performance was everything you can ask for in a really good actor. Its such a shame he passed away at a young age. He could have gone very far. He acted the character Joker in a way that ur terrified of him but his blardy funny at the same time, which is really rare. In a way u kinda feel for his character which is weird coz ur kinda like supporting the villain instead of the hero!But nevertheless, it was a really good movie! I recommend it to everyone but oyea for kids...hmm...its very dark so its not really good for kids but what the heck...u only live once right...go ahead kids...!!!hahaha...

Awesomest holiday ever =)

My june holiday was the most undescribable holiday ever-AWESOME gila babz ok~!

Hehehe..its was full of surprises,laughter,love,spontaneity and so much craziness~!I really learn my lesson of not going back home for so long, let me rephrase that...TOO long. Didnt go back for 2 years and kota kinabalu has changed so much yet still kept that homey feeling. Ironically i missed Centre Point like crazy...hahaha Here i get to go to big malls...One U,Megamall and so on...but yet i miss my lil CP. I guess its because of those special memories there.

Another good thing bout this trip is that i manage to meet up with my old buddy, Ian, and i finally apologised to him. Wont go into that matter coz its kinda private. Let me just say that it was one of those regrets that could have been dealt with earlier but there were other circumstances. I finally got my bestfriend back- one of those friends that should be with u all the time.

I will never forget the spontaneous roadtrip to Ranau, those late movie nights, the beach, the white saga, the kionsom waterfall trip, the kelisa, the yummy ngiu chap, the AWESOME club hopping nights,the trip to pulau mamutik (camwhore like crazy), the sleepovers at the hotel, upperstar-ing, late nights at mcD and those loving hugs and kisses

Oyea and the thing i love bout kk is that no matter where u go, for sure u'd bump into someone familiar. Hehehe...and the ngiu chap...OMG...the ngiu chap...i MISS it like crazy. I arrived in kk around 6 plus in the morning and my mum asked me where did i want to go first and the first thing that popped into my head was NGIU CHAP! Ahhh...nyaman...hehehe =)

Most of all i loved bout this trip was the company. Meeting bellie,amesz,hannah,laine n the rest was the best thing ever. I actually cried when i was going to leave coz i realise that i really really miss them like crazy. They are those kind of friends that will always be there no matter what. Bestfriends 4ever =)